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Get off me, I can't breath! I haven't felt I deep relaxing breathe in months. I just want to be like everyone else, but it impossible for me to do that without you.

First
You
Start
With
My
Hands

Everything I touch is cold with the exception of her. When I touch her my hands melt, but I clean it up with a random topic of conversation hoping she  didn't notice. Why do you do this to me. This never happened to me before you came along.

Then
It's
My
Mind

I can't stop thinking. I find her in the darkest place of my thoughts the place where I put my stress and anxiety. Soon after it will become the brightest place filling my head full memories. But only if I have you. Without you I couldn't have found her. I couldn't have thought about her night and day. I would've said the wrong things to her. I couldn't have dreamed about how maybe one day me and her would be friends. I couldn't get to where I am now with out you.

Now
It's
My
Heart

Beating so hard I can't count the beats. I never was good at counting anyways unless I got you. My blood is boiling with all the anxiety of her. My eyes flutter across the scene of my life. I have no control of you. I'm starting to you run this and I'm just along for the ride.

But are you even worth it?

I'd think so

I've been sitting here in this doctors office for more then an hour now just waiting for you because if i have you I have her and that's worth it.

ACT Score

I got a crappy score on the ACT. If you are a college you look at that for one second and keep flipping through for a 25 or above. Have you ever thought about why that kid got a 20.
Maybe he has dyslexia.
Maybe he has ADHD.
Maybe he has ADD.
Maybe those four hours in a tiny room gave him an anxiety you could feel 2 class rooms away.
Maybe that kid missed half his Junior year because he was in the hospital.
Maybe he doesn't give a shit about your profiling number.
Maybe he just wants to go to your school because he has a desire to learn.
His ACT Score may be low but his will to work at something is high.

Carefree

I want to live Carefree.
Not careless.
I don't want to care what people think.
I don't want to care about money.
I want to care about family.
I want to care about friends.
I want to live like the legends that climbed Everest without know if it was possible.
I want to live like Sir Edmund Hillary.
I want to live likehttp://edmundhillary08.blogspot.com/?m=1
I just want to live my life carefree.

Thinking

I can't sleep
I'm thinking about you
I'm thinking about you like how boys think about girls and how girls think about boys
I'm thinking about you like how clouds think about rain
I'm thinking about you like how snow thinks about the sun and how kids think about fun.
I'm thinking about you
I Don't know why I can't stop.
I'm think about you like how horses think about running and how candles think about burning
I'm thinking.
I can't stop thinking. Even when I sleep you are still there.

Running away

Let's runaway if we leave now they won't know we are gone til morning.

Let's go to New Panzance. We just missed the storm and I'm ready to leave.

There is nothing here for us. These people don't see like we do. We're just a little different.

I want to leave right now! If you don't come I'll just go by myself!

I hate it here. And if you don't want to leave with me your just like the rest.

I hate you too. You're not who you think you are.

A Friend to a friend

Dear friend,

Haha, laughing out loud These are common sounds to me But have you taken the time to consider What it's like to be the man behind the funny Success-measured in laughs Friendship-measured in smiles Self worth always on the line Ready to run a thousand miles I may seem like one to look up to Maybe one to exemplify But in the end what will I be When all the jokes run dry Smart? Maybe, it's hard to show Kind? I'm not the one who would know Neither of these traits help my self esteem And neither feed my ego Have you considered that it may be a front A way to hide myself away Have you considered I think I'm a c*** So I keep my real self at bay So I guess I'll keep up this humorous visage Keep hidden the real me I guess like Gaga I love the applause Funnies all I'll ever be

- I miss you buddy

K

Shallow
Fake
Distant
Cursory
Depthless
Empty
Flat
Slight
Superficial
Surface
Trifling
Trivial
Unsound
Dishonest

Words to discribe 90% of the people at school.

Why I can't use crayons

We know that the left side of the brain is the part that has creativity. This mean that the right side must have the part that's more focused and demanding. Now let's say you have some sort of ADD or ADHD. This makes it hard to use the right side of the brain. And can't control the left side so it will just goes crazy and does what ever it wants. Now let's say some one tells you to take a pill and chill out and work harder in school. That little pill makes the brain switch sides so your completely focused and in th zone. But all your creativity is gone.

This is what happend to me someone gave me a pink pill and told me to chill out. Every thing was much more clear with this little pill. It was also made clear to me that I was turning into a boring person. I don't want to be boring I want to be able to use my left brain and right brain at the same time. Sadly I can not. So I must choose, live like a creative crazy person or, get good grades and be boring? 

I choose the creative crazy freak!

Whyyyyy

Why are we here? You can give me the religious answer and say "we are being tested" . That hardly is an answer. I belive that we are supposed to leave this place better than we found it. I feel like all great people that changed the world knew what they were going to do from a young age. I have no idea what I should do. Where do I start? A career? A belief? A philosophy? I think I may have figured it out. I'll be an example.

An example of how not to care what other think. An example of how to treat other people. An example of Jesus Christ (yes I am religious). An example of mistakes and grief. I could go on about all the things that I try to do just to be a Quality person. But I feel it's not really doing a justice for other people because maybe no one looks to me as an example. So does that mean I'm just wasting my time trying to do right. I know that it doesn't matter what anyone thinks because God sees everything. But how would I be leaving my mark on the world if no one cared? Maybe I should just not give a crap like the rest.

An Owl

Big wide yellow eyes it looks down from above the trees. It doesn't make a sound. It just sits in its tree and looks at you. You freeze trying not to scare it. You look up to it as if it has something to say or some great council. But it doesn't make a sound. Owls are known for being wise.

Symbolic signs of owls are: wisdom, mystery, transition, messages, intelligence, protection, secrets. The Native Americans looked to owls for foresight and keeper of sacred knowledge. I feel like the native Americans knew something we don't. I feel like there is an Owl out the that it keeping my secrets and protecting me. He knows more about me than anyone else. I wish that I could go talk to that owl so that he could tell me what to do. I want to know what he thinks is best for me and what I should do. I bet one day I will be able to talk to him Maybe when I'm dead. I wonder if in heaven animals will be able to talk? I hope so.

WHY MUST WE WRITE ABOUT HATS. I mean, I like hats to wear but I feel like everyone's blog with be the same for this promt. Talking about how we have hats for every situation that we are in like school, friends, church. It's a cool thing to think about but it doesn't really give me a desire to write. Sorry. Don't hate me Nelson